Thursday, November 19, 2009

It's late

It's late. I am tired. I have so much going on in my head right now. Sadness hits at the oddest times. Tired of dealing with kids that are so spoiled it is ridiculous. Tired of dealing with people that are so insensitive and have no clue. Did I mention I am tired.

I did go through my closet tonight and have two huge bags of clothes to take to goodwill. I am taking a bunch of other stuff too. Maybe getting rid of some of this will help me. I am ready to feel better. Praying that day will come. Some sort of healing. God is with me and I am aware of that. Thank you God for being there.

I am listening.

I am waiting.

Saturday, November 7, 2009

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Someone will win 200 dollars!

The Road Ahead

Well, I will go back to the surgeon on Wednesday. I have been on some really nasty antibiotics 4 times a day. They are freaking horse pills and I dont swallow pills! I have been doing ok with them. Takes me a little bit and then I get it down. Sam has made so much fun of me. Oh well, he screams like a little girl if he sees a frog! Pay back baby.
Dr. Tompkins said that he wants to give the infection a month to try and heal before we talk about surgery. He wasnt aware of my clotting disorder at that appointment so that throws a whole nother kink in the situation of surgery. I am not even sure if I can have it here. So now we just wait on this part.
I have been doing ok with the news of having another baby. I have my days. I have had many wonderful friends that I have cried with and that has helped. We cant move forward with adoption right now because of finances. We have started up a fund for that. It breaks my heart that it cost so much to rescue these helpless babies out of orphanages or even from moms here that want a better future for their babies. Domestic adoption scares me to death thought. I have seen many families have nurseries ready and waiting only to have the baby ripped from them either at the hospital or a while after they come home. I had no idea that some states the mother has up to 1 year to change her mind! You have to be freakin kidding me. ONE WHOLE YEAR.
I am off to work on some curtains for a friend that is having twins in TWO weeks. Sweet baby girls, Gracie Jo and Avaleigh. I cant wait to hold them. I am hoping that it wont be to hard for me. Please keep my friend Peri in your prayers too! She is going to need them.
Love and hugs,