Monday, June 28, 2010

Thank you

Thank you all for the sweet comments on our last post. We are hanging in there and doing better.We still haven't said anything to Jake because we still aren't sure what is going to happen.
It has been one week since we found out that our baby wasnt going to come home. It still seems strange to walk by her room that is all set up. I know we will pack things up, but not right now.
We are praying for God's will to be done in this whole matter. We are also praying that His plan be shown. He isnt finished working yet! We know that.

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Dear Summer Grace

It has been four days since we found out you werent coming home to us. Four very long, hard days. All your stuff was ready for you. I even had your hospital bag packed. I NEVER imagined it would be this hard.
Jake still doesn't know. We are waiting to make sure that this is really going to happen this way. We have many telling us they feel that your birth mom will change her mind again. We don't want to tell Jake you aren't coming and then you do get to come home. I hate to break his heart.
I don't know what to do with your things. Friends have said to wait. I just cant deal with packing them away right now. Your crib is still up and waiting. The bedding Callie made will be in later this week. Many things we have had monogrammed for you will also be coming in.
I know each day will get better. God is taking care of us and you right now. Just know baby girl, there are many people and churches praying for you no matter what happens. That gives me peace. You will always be prayed for no matter who your mother is.
Love always

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

The end

I am numb, sad, angry, any emotion you can think of honestly. The birth mother decided that ( with her mothers coercion) to keep the baby. She (the grandmother) had no intention of leaving us alone after Summer Grace became ours. we found out that this had kind of been the plan for a while. I havent slept or eaten in two days. Please pray. We will be telling Jake today and I am just not ready for that.

Thursday, June 10, 2010

4 weeks!!

It seems like the doc is wanting to induce the birth mom at 38 weeks! This leaves us with only 4 more weeks until we get to meet our daughter! God knows the plan and how everthing will go. We are excited to be in the home stretch now.
Sam finished painting the room today and we are getting all of the things moved back in. I am making some things as well. I am going to work on a bow holder. I am just going to do and inital one at first. Once we pass the 2 week time period I am going to do a fancier one.
I am amazed when I look in the closet and see baby girl things. I never dreamed this would happen. I love that God takes care of us. All things have happened in His time, not ours. Jake prays for her each night. He has a little calendar that he is marking off the days until her due date. I LOVE it!
Well I am off to work on some more girlie things. Thanks for all of the prayers!